Saturday, July 29, 2006 | 10:18 PM

crazy dreams.not a premonition for sure,i am not even powerful

oh, goodness...

you'd probably find my life rather ambiguous if i told you(someone who doesn't really understand) about it,but really, really!it isn't, at all..or so at least i think.but i think i do know what exactly is happening, in some sense.

don't get what i'm trying to get across?oh nevermind then.i shall tell you about a dream i had on Saturday night.truth be told, i don't really remember what happened after the MAIN EVENT which is imprinted extremely well on my memory, so here goes:

dreamt that i was in school, and it was maths period.weird thing was that mr khoo did not come in to teach.instead, X came to teach instead.what a surprise!!cos X is really way to young to teach secondary 2 math..i mean X is still a teenager!

so i stared at X for a few moments, and didn't listen to X teaching some lame mathematics topic.was drawing/writing something on my foolscap pad when suddenly X walked over from the teacher's table(HAH!) and in my direction.standing next to my table, X then muttered to me something about being late for school.since it came out slurred,i just went 'har?' and that was the end of the so-called conversation cos X didn't reply.

ohoh, and after a short while (still in my dream now) i suddenly remembered to ask inez what she thought of X's physical appearance, since she told me she was rather interested in the looks of X, though there is the proclaimed probability that she'd vomit blood if she saw X.asked inez and she said that X was s____.

that was the biggest thing in my dream.my jaw dropped, and i just stared at her..

-end of dream-

you wouldn't understand a single thing about X if i haven't told you anything about it!

okay i am not going to state the gender of X here, for i think that should be kept confidential for no reason.ha ha!

i know,i know..this post seems rather unlike me.but i don't even bother to spill out all my secrets here, so this shows that i might not be who you really think i am!

okay end of story.i shall re-tell it to my friends tomorrow, with all the details included exclusively for them.

till next time.

Friday, July 28, 2006 | 8:01 PM

BBB!!!BSB!!!

i openly declare my love for all things Japanese!

practically everything!

from now onwards, i shall strive to use everything japanese-made,even my stationary!

Friday, July 21, 2006 | 5:39 AM

quiz time once more

INFP - "Questor". High capacity for caring. Emotional face to the world. High sense of honor derived from internal values. 4.4% of total population.

Introverted (I) 75% Extroverted (E) 25%Intuitive (N) 66.67% Sensing (S) 33.33%Feeling (F) 79.17% Thinking (T) 20.83%Perceiving (P) 66.67% Judging (J) 33.33%

Free Jung Word Choice Test (similar to MBTI)
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Global Personality Test Results

Stability (20%) low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Orderliness (40%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment. Extraversion (23%) low which suggests you are very reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

trait snapshot:
messy, depressed, introverted, feels invisible, does not make friends easily, nihilistic, reveals little about self, fragile, dark, bizarre, feels undesirable, dislikes leadership, reclusive, weird, irritable, frequently second guesses self, unassertive, unsympathetic, low self control, observer, worrying, phobic, suspicious, unproductive, avoidant, negative, bad at saving money, emotionally sensitive, does not like to stand out, dislikes large parties, submissive, daydreamer

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Brain Lateralization Test Results

Right Brain (54%) The right hemisphere is the visual, figurative, artistic, and intuitive side of the brain. Left Brain (40%) The left hemisphere is the logical, articulate, assertive, and practical side of the brain

According to Darwinian theory, optimal evolution takes place with random variation and selective retention. The evolution savvy individual will try many different approaches when faced with a problem and select the best of those approaches. Many historical intellectuals have confessed their advantage was simply considering/exploring/trying more approaches than others. The left brain dominant type suffers from limited approaches, narrow-mindedness. The right brain dominant type suffers from too many approaches, scatterbrained. To maintain balanced hemispheres, you need to exercise both variability and selection. Just as a company will have more chance of finding a great candidate by increasing their applicant pool, an individual who considers a wider set of options is more likely to make quality decisions.

Are You Right or Left Brained?(word test)
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Tuesday, July 18, 2006 | 5:51 AM

...this sucks.

i take back my words.

Saturday, July 15, 2006 | 7:09 PM

excuse me,are you from a gold band?

Ye shall know the truth and the truth shall make you free

GOLD for nbc

before our turn,in the tuning room, it suddenly dawned on me how wonderful we really sound.we were one voice,all of us harmonised together by the beautiful bond of music.i almost cried.we had come so far.i still remember the first time i played my euphonium.i could only reach five notes.and now i am capable of actually playing well enough to be included in the competition,given the chance to bring home the long-awaited gold.how much i've improved, how much we've all improved.from the day we were all blown away by the texan version of Yiddish Dances to the day that we have mastered the song and are ready enough to present it to the judges, confident enough to bag the gold.

i thought that the performance was scary, my palms went wet and no matter how i kept trying to dry them on my blazer they stayed the same.my heart beat like never before,thundering within my eardrums, which are only too sensitive to realise flaws in my playing and allow fear to seep into my veins.yethong and i couldn't stop 'grooving to the beat', by nodding our heads rather slightly.we had to enjoy, but why was i growing nervous?!

ms sia couldn't stop frowning, and i couldn't stop watching her.thank god i didn't skip any notes, though my pitching was rather bad in the march.that feeling was indescribable, and this is how much i can try to get out of it:my brain was half frozen,my whole body almost went stiff,and i was on the verge of forgetting everything everyone told me to keep in mind throughout the pieces.things seemed dark(though i was under the spotlight sheesh) and my perspiration felt cold.i wanted to believe and hope that the outcome would be what we worked so hard for, but yet, something at the back of my desperate mind kept holding back the thought and deterred me from doing so.

i was really dumbstruck when Yiddish Dances ended.that was it.8 months worth of practising and learning and improving, presented to the judges in the best state we could make it to be.would they like it and be blown away?or just dismiss it as a song too high a standard for a mediocre band,only capable of a Silver award at syf afterall, and give us yet another silver that we would receive with disappointment befalling us yet once more?i didn't know, i really didn't.but one thing stayed clear in my mind.i knew that i did my very best.i knew, i knew.

didn't want to look back anymore.what's done has been done.no way to ever to back and rewrite history.i was tired.

huijun called me after the competition.she was anxious,because the clock read 6.23pm.results were to be announced somewhere along this fateful passage of time.it'd either make or break the gold band we hoped so much to become.

let dreams, be reality after so long.

after a short while, huijun called me again.when she spoke into the phone with that breathless and excited tone,my heart stopped a beat.i believed in ourselves.i knew that disappointment would not get us.gold, gold, gold.at that moment, i was simply waiting for her to scream into the mouthpiece the wonderful news.sadly,i didn't go nuts.i was feeling ill, and now i am.sore throat, and i couldn't stop sniffling that day.drained, i was.maybe that contributed to my earlier melancholy.

i couldn't stop grinning,though.till i fell asleep.didn't recall any dreams,but maybe moondust was poured over my unconcious thoughts that night and brought sweet victory once more into my mind.

i want to thank michelle for praying for me,charlotte for wishing me good luck,huijun for being the bringer of the news,yethong for always being there,my whole section,the whole band,the conductors(vital) and the teachers i/c for sacrificing saturday rest to bring us to vch and compete.cedar symphonic has finally done the school proud.

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Saturday, July 08, 2006 | 6:14 PM

great song!

Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer

Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map
-
yalah i know its very old already but i like it!

Monday, July 03, 2006 | 6:11 AM

survey,from ys!

I HAVE BEEN TAGGED BY YEE SUAN!

#1 Do the following WITHOUT complains
#2 Choose 5 people to do this after you completed
#3 Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged
#4 Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.

FAVOURITES
Colour: purple i suppose
Food: dont know
Movie: cant decide
Day of the Week: saturday
Season: autumn/winter.must experience both well first,before i come to a decision

CURRENTS
Mood:thinking sth along the lines of 'i feel like sleeping'
Taste: huh?
Clothes: t-shirt and shorts
Desktop Picture: To Me, You Are Everything - TAMAKI AND HARUHI!
Toenail Colour: i dont know.isnt it colourless?eww sounds gross
Surroundings: im in my computer room..v v messy
Annoyances: stupid song playing on wma,which i am about to take off soon

FIRSTS
Best Friends: mandy wong!
Crush: dont rmb
Movie: dont rmb
Lie: cant rmb
Music: the first song i played..twinkle twinkle little star?one handed!!sheesh

LASTS
Cigarette: i dun smoke
Drink: water
Movie: just my luck.its so-so,btw.
Phonecall: inez
Played: played what?

HAVE YOU EVER
Dated One Of Your Best Friends: erm..my besties are all female,and i'm straight.
Broken The Law: i've jaywalked!
Been Arrested: nope
Skinny Dipped: nope
Been On TV : yeah..and i looked like a ghost.
Kissed Someone You Don't Know : no

NUMERICAL-NONSENSICAL
Five Things You Are Wearing Right Now: you dont need to know
Four Things You've Done Today: watched ouran high,did math homework,drew chinese comics,showed off my fiends
Three Things You Hear Right Now: timpani sound,some male tenor going vibrato..and nothing else
One Thing That You Do When You're Bored: stare into space

TAG!
#1 alicia
#2 alex
#3 shinny
#4 chatty
#5 magesh