Friday, March 31, 2006 | 8:56 PM

up to my neck

what now?

week after torturous week,what more do they still want from me?one week i have 3 tests and so much homework,the other i only have 1 test,but the teachers somehow think its no sweat to us and decide to load us with even more homework so odd and even schoolweeks all seem the same to us now.

my ridiculous CCA takes up my after-school time slot on Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays, and i never return home before 5pm on these days.the moment i step into the house i can only take a quick shower,gobble down my dinner and it's back to the study-grind.great, don't you think it?tuesdays and thursdays i leave the school at 6.30pm.i don't know what's up with them,but tests ALWAYS fall on wednesdays and fridays.

oh,life is SO meaningful since it's pieced together so prettily JUST FOR ME!

i can't stand the people around me.i can't name all you prats, sadly.though no one reads this, it is still afterall, accessible to the rest of the world.

for this weekend's homework,i have to complete yet another geography mindmap(in preperation for my mere 1 geography test next friday),2 ban yue ji(translated to english as fortnightly reflections),a chinese essay, 'O' level assessments, math notes, and i must come up with a recipe for my school's 50th anniversary bash next year.hell i'd love to bash everyone up now.

what do you think of it?to me,it's only the greatest amount of homework to complete in 2 days i've ever met!no problem honey,i'd scale this mountain and climb up to top with ease!

just..let me point this out.it's week 2 in my second term and i have 2 fortnightly reflections in chinese to hand up on monday.

Friday, March 24, 2006 | 7:43 PM

my god i slept half the day away!

Tuesday, March 21, 2006 | 6:10 AM

365th

tis the last day of being an immature 13-year-old..

Friday, March 10, 2006 | 8:42 PM

eurgh..

school closed yesterday!i went out with huijun inez yicen and mingee!5 of us if we really walked side by side dyou reckon we'd look like a gang?haha of course not im just yakking gibberish we all look so innocent and cute!

we took a very long time.school ended at 1.40 and we set off at 3pm.all of them changed into home clothing except for me and huijun,since we just joined in at the eleventh hour.we(huijun and i) thought we didn't look/smell good so we took her body mist and sprayed it all over ourselves!didn't have much of an effect,though.

well we walked along orchard road and saw many japanese!at 7-11 this stupid staff wanted to take a picture of me and huijun at their outlet,probably to use as propaganda and brainwash the public that they give excellect service.in the end they got this boy from an international school and he had to stand frozen,drinking apple juice from that teeny cup and trying to smile at the same time.i thought he rather enjoyed it,though.

at cineleisure(whatever it's spelled i don't care)we took neoprints...was it fun?there were costumes that we could dress ourselves up in and they forced me to take part and wear a kings crown.i also had a weird velvety cape draped on me.they wanted me to be a boy!arh anything though the pictures turned out alright(save for my ugly face) i really wouldn't take neoprints again.too bimbotic and i hate those little cartoon things you could paste on the pictures.there was even lamination and the plastic they used had twinkling stars on it.

so nice?i think not quite..

well that was all so goodbye.

Thursday, March 09, 2006 | 12:00 AM

yipee hooray!lets all cheer and stamp our feet on the ground

i have no cca this week!so lovely i go home real early everyday and there's no pressure on me to study for any impending tests now since it's the last week!

yesterday i got sent to the Recovery Room cos i wasn't feeling well.it was a nice trip.i missed a lesson!well,at the expense of my health,though.i slept awhile there, and when i woke up it was already recess,so i went to find my friends since that short rest really deemed me alive and kicking!no really,i was half in my grave before i got there.charlotte said i looked like a bunny when they saw me asleep.i should really stop playing with Brownie now..

well today was kinda bittersweet,but mostly lazy and slack-ish.i got a pathetic mark for my history test but topped the class in higher chinese(for the first time this year!)i used to get bottom,but i really don't know what brought about this pleasant positive change in my grade.this implies that chinese the subject is unpredictable and distrustable,so please cut off that subject!preeeeeeetty please:(??

i have geography and math homework due tomorrow.not planning to do anytime now,you see..anyway shucks!(that sounded stupid)i have to wear my yucky p.e shirt tomorrow!now yellow scares the socks off me cos its the color of that literally stinky shirt.i hear you snort that p.e or running isn't that bad,or maybe it just seems too difficult to me,but really i'd like to see you try find any of my schoolmates who hasn't sweated like a pig in it!

oh well school's closing tomorrow and inez wants to celebrate the start of the holidays!should i go?don't really feel like now,really.

note:my chin hurts,real badly.i suppose i've been leaning over too lazily on the table nowadays,or maybe i just tripped over something and landed real hard on it!

Friday, March 03, 2006 | 2:55 AM

19 more

something is wrong with me.i suppose i have some disorder within me,since i sulk everyday and complain at the teeniest things,in school.

i have also become increasingly obedient.no more quarrels with Mother, and i sleep before 10 every night(alright that's because i dont want to study late into the night).even on weekends i go to bed before 11pm.

placid,placid me.i retort no more.instead i just sit there like a muffled idiot,looking at my fingernails or trying to pull off that irritating bit of skin attached to my finger's side.

i don't really know what i do nowadays.the week always seems to slog on while i try to keep forgetting anything that happened a few days back so the weekends'd seem to come sooner.however when i recall some stuff which happened only a fortnight before i'd go in my mind:wow,that was actually so damn long ago!

things just seem so weird sometimes.especially now,when i'm so confused and don't really get what i'm doing most of the time.

sounds weird,but i think my temper has really taken on a drastic change.i scream only when yicen pokes me,and i'm pretty quiet most of the time.like it?i sure do,somehow.there are too many chatterboxes around.

funny thing about me is that i strive to be what the average person ain't.so i act like a misfit,and get really low self-esteem.

i like being me,but i hate myself.