Wednesday, October 26, 2005 | 9:29 PM

Reminiscence

music: A Moment Like This - Kelly Clarkson(i know it's been 4 years but i still like it!)

oh yay i went out with Alex and Shinny today hoopla!yay yay it's so funny we kept making fun of some people and imitating them,usually ending up in the two of them roaring and me smiling away like an idiot because i must look demure and 5 teeth on my lower jaw are crooked yelp!

whatever it is i love them so much i really can't imagine what'd happen to me if i didn't have them at all in the first place!yipee i hope we can go out again during the holidays!

there was band today.ah shucks i really don't see the meaning of my attendance..they didn't even mark my name!what's more less than half the people turned up i should've skipped it and have more time with my two darlings..oh well.

oh and i saw Ms Ng at Juncion8 today.eeee so awkward i was in uniform and she immediately looked at me!so i just stared at the floor and faster escaped to the front haha.well it'd look real awkward if i suddenly said 'Good Afternoon Ms Ng' in the shopping centre eh?haha i really don't know.

well even more things happened yesterday,and i was hoping to publish it all,but while finishing up the blog post yesterday the computer just went all black..because i was using the faulty Windows98.hmm i must say i didn't scream,but just muttered 'damn' to myself.whohooo anger management haha!

okay i'm feeling very bored here i think i shall cease sharing my life with others right now bye-bye!

Monday, October 24, 2005 | 5:03 PM

music: Shy That Way - Jason Mraz and Tristan Prettyman

it's Monday and i didn't go to school!haha it's Promotion Day!so great i just relaxed the whole day.but guess what?i forgot to wash my shoes!!!!!it's horrid now the sides are all black because i've been sitting too much on the floor of the sports hall.damnit!i hate going for those talks and programmes i don't even remember what one of them's like out of the 22389530 ones.

Life's pretty boring now..especially when the weather sucks!it really does because it's not windy at all and the sun is setting soon i don't even get to see an oh-so-pretty sight.and on tuesday wednesday and thursday i cannot go out!rargh CCA for the next 3 consecutive days!tuesday and thursday's practices end at 6pm.6pm damnit!and on Wednesday we'll most probably watch another movie that will make me end up sleeping.i slept the first time i just had to!i'm being completely honest here.i think that the movie sucks and watching it wouldn't benefit us in any way at all!it's just so ridiculous.

okay i'm feeling pretty pissed now all of a sudden maybe because the weather totally sucks.my back is also aching and the computer screen is too bright and i'm very whiny.

i also suddenly feel like switching my site.i've already thought up of a new name but i've just too many memories left here i can't bear to just delete them all.say,maybe i'll copy and paste all the old posts in the new site.this is my 87th post i foresee alot of clicking if i continue with my stupid plan.

still,the site name is ridiculously trashy...sounds kinda appealing to the bimbo girl who just <3s reading Teenage eh?

NO i am not pinpointing anyone it just went into my mind and stuck there because it is just too relevant thank you very much.

i shall take my leave now.Don't, have a good day(since i'm not having one).

Saturday, October 22, 2005 | 10:47 PM

yay i'm still happy

woolala i am back.well not really 'cos i'm always there when you need me!

but things are really sweet now.i get to sleep late and wake up late!and the big plus is that there's no school on Monday it's just so lovely!

well i've really nothing i'd like to write here but i've just adopted the custom of writing everyday it makes me feel better!

ho-hum.

the fields are lush green faraway
grass a dewy emerald today
tread upon the carpet on tip-toe
your senses as keen as a doe

breathing in the fresh air
your lungs in a foreign lair
taking in scents of greenery
woody,musky,flowery

we turn up to the top and see
count the clouds one, two, three
in the sky of azure blue
unwaken happiness will come to

walking on the dewy threads
this beautiful scene stuck to our heads
what a perfect day it is to us
how i wish it'd forever last!

-Me.

Friday, October 21, 2005 | 9:20 PM

i've nothing to blog about today!no really i don't quite wish to discuss anything with myself today.

i was cold and distant and quiet today,due to..unforseen reasons.yeah.

don't know why,but i don't want to open up today.so i shall pen something pretty!

i am faraway today
in a closed land
capsuled
one of my dreams

bottled up

don't you love it?well even if you don't i do!yes darling i am still full of praise of myself and this is unlikely to wear off soon.just catch me when my actions threathen to turn out foolish and let me crash back to reality!

i shall entertain myself.behold!

What If...

01. What if someone cheated on you?
i'd get really angry and start snubbing everyone i see till they can't stand me no more.too bad by then the anger would probably vanish..so the answer is a bad end for me.

02. What if you cheated on someone you loved?
i wouldn't.no no seriously!!but if i actually did i'd live in guilt for maybe 3 days or so and then vomit out the truth.

03. What if someone you hated died?
i wouldn't be so happy and all because a death is seriously a big deal.well i guess i'd just shut up and remain indifferent.and no i will resist the temptation and not throw confetti in the air and start dancing.

04. What if your friend made out with your boy/girlfriend?
i really can't make up my mind.friendship and love,which weighs heavier to me?friendship lasts,but it's just like the pale scent of a flower compared to the rich fragrance from the golden rose of love.can anyone help me here??

05. What if there was a lit cigarette right in front of you now?
stomp on it and stomp away.yeah i wouldn't bother to help that smoker throw that little stick of cowdung.

06. What if you could change your name?
i want a unique name,but still nice at the same time.i don't quite like names in other languages,though some in Irish would be lovely.for one thing i certainly wouldn't be called Tan Xin Lin.

07. What if you knew you'd die tomorrow?
i'd cry all day and in the evening i'd try to clear up my mind and write a will with the words all splotchy because of tears.well i don't have much so i'll just give away my books,money and violin away to the people i love.that's all i have,really.though i have many other things,they are of no worth to others because they don't quite understand.i'll let them be burnt and be tossed into my urn with my ashes.really i'd rather be cremated than buried.or be turned into a jewel?really i read it somewhere it's simply fascinating.i'd want to be an emerald!i love that color.

08. What would you buy if you had eighty dollars right now?
MR. A-Z of course,and some other nice CDs.the reamining money i'd save it all up.

09. What if you saw ten dollars drop from a person onto the ground?
return it of course.i'm not a sneaky cheat.

10. What if there was a full can of beer in front of you right now?
sell it to some drunkard for loads of money cos he wouldn't be clear how much cash then stashed in his wallet would be gone!

11. What is the most random thing you are thinking of right now?
footprints and the sun.

12. What song have you had stuck in your head lately?
All The Love In The World by The Corrs.recently i've been taking to listening to their music.quite nice indeed,and they're Irish!

13. What if it was either you sending your friend to prison or saving yourself?
of course i'd be the one on the suffering end.i'm really a selfless person deep inside,like everyone else.it would take nothing but betrayal of soul to let your loved one suffer!

okay i'm finally done my back aches alot i shall sign off now till next time!

Thursday, October 20, 2005 | 9:47 PM

oh.i forgot.

rather recently i have been praying everyday.to God.:D i feel so happy nowadays.don't know why!but it has been lasting!life is just so, so sweet now..like fairy dust sprinkled over the colourful top of a flower,enhancing essence,sweetness and delicacy!yes i do cherish these days and my lovely friends.

okay maybe no one gets what i'm saying.

i've never felt so happy before,never ever so contented.i've overcome all the obstacles and pushed myself to the front.it all paid off,and the reward is showered on me and i just feel so happy and euphoric... so blessed.

this is the first.life was never so meaningful for me.though i don't really have a goal i'm working towards to,i feel accomplished.like i've done what i could've,and my potential is finally shown i'm so relieved that i really have the ability to excel,for it has always been lurking somewhere in the murky shadows.

now,just one word to tell it all,what i'm feeling.

Thankful.

| 8:02 PM

hello!i couldn't use the good computer yesterday so i settled for the horribly horrid one.i only describe it so because 10minutes into the internet it went auto shut off.so there!also i wasn't in a great mood or anything and didn't feel very well,so i went to sleep real early at 9pm.i think something's rather wrong with me because on the bus to school today i thought i smelled blueberry morning(post cereal yum!) but actually someone was sucking this grape gummy behind me.do blueberry and grape have much in common?the other thing is that i was extremely tired and my mind would usually clear up by recess under these circumstances.but i was still lethargic and almost dozed off during band,which was around 4pm.i dunno really,they might sound insignificant to you but i have a funny feeling that it's not minor.oh well.

yesterday was kinda sweet,in the morning especially.we received papers again!i am simply so proud of myself for topping the class in Literature.yes i mean it i am really so proud i walked around the whole school screaming 'Lit. rocks!' maybe this is the consequence of realisation that i had edged out everyone in the class in this academic sense.haha i doubt you get my drift.

history was not very pleasing.actually i was disappointed.only an A2!but nevermind it is still a nice mark!

today was simply horrid.yeah!we had to sit(cross-legged ow that hurts i get leg cramps you know) through 4 talks about things that i can barely remember.and i didn't get to play enough card games i just love gambling so!

alright i am going to clear up some stuff pretty soon then go off to sleep.i'm really tired nowadays been coming home around 7pm for the past consecutive 3 days it really drains me.

ha ha i doubt you actually get me.it must be my fatigue.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005 | 7:54 PM

i hope it would still be YAY tomorrow

haha i've not been writing for 8 days.i'm not ashamed of it because i blog when i feel like it,and the number of times i feel like that has been dwindling...

we received papers yesterday!oohlala i topped the class in Higher Chinese!AAAHH i'm so pleased i got a B4!!YEAH i know you must be sniggering at me for being so proud of such a low score you MIGHT consider obscene,but you are indeed forgetting that Higher Chinese is the toughest mother tongue in cedar,and last years MSG for the sec1s was 6.0!i've received a 4!how about that eh?also,i only received a PASS for my PSLE and wasn't supposed to be qualified to study Higher Chinese but still i went on thick-skinned and beat everyone else when the teacher kinda expected me not to do well.and i actually passed my Ying Yong Wen for the first time in this year HAHA it is just too timely!the ugly fact is that there are only 6 people who study higher chinese in this class.no matter what it is still a great deal to me,at least.oh yeah the mark is 62.5!

yay the other happy fact is that I PASSED MATH!aaaaaaaaaaaaah i got a 60!!!isn't is just superb?i seriously can't describe how tense i was when i received my Section B and calculating my marks.I PASSED PASSED PASSED CLEAN AND CLEARLY!!that was all i could think of,because these 7 words were enough to bring hours of euphoria!

well it really isn't good at all to get a B4 for mathematics but i've been failing since the first term,so i'm really proud of myself i wouldn't fail the overall mathematics hoorah!

english was really bad.of course i didn't fail,but the mark was unexpectedly horrid.oh well,i can't have everything.doing better than expected for my waterloo(s) are enough to drive away negative thoughts for 48 hours yes i am still extremely happy!

today rocked.yicen and inez started building houses out of the poker cards i brought.and we used the whole deck to make this really big one it was plainly superb 6 of us (me charlotte inez huijun michelle and yicen) took a picture with it in my phone!someday soon i'd take my digital camera and take a picture of the screen to upload it on this computer.seriously when you see it your lips will just automatically curve upwards because all of us were feeling very happy and excited it was all caught on the camera!

alright i've written alot now!hope i've brought some joy because no matter what you say ain't gonna bring me down todayyyyyyyyyyyyyy argh i just can't help because being a happy girl feels so good!

Monday, October 10, 2005 | 8:09 PM

HELLO!EOYs are over praise Jesus!okay i'm not a christian or anything but i'm just simply so hyper because *ahem* I DON'T HAVE TO ATTEND SCHOOL TILL NEXT MONDAY HAHA!

i'm repeating this for the nth time:yicen is the crappiest person on earth.
yet another evidence to prove it:while in the cinema with my six other friends watching a movie,she turned around and told me there were many cedarians around.

GETTIT?i think it's pretty hilarious,but of course it only goes this way because i laugh at the slightest things, even though they might not be funny at times!

alright i'm not going to type much because my life is a bore.

au revoir!(okay i hate french,but can anyone tell me the bulgarian version of this?)

Thursday, October 06, 2005 | 3:12 PM

Hah!

haven't been writing for rather long..cos i've been studying hard.i hope to get 3 A1s.HAHA FAT HOPE XINLIN.

nothing much happened..just that we've been rubbing our nose raw to the grind.oh and we received our class photos today.i shan't comment on how others appear to be.yes yes I'M THE FAIREST OF THEM ALLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!mwahaha i'll try acting as a ghost end of this month to scare the heck outta you.

i shan't talk about today.i shan't talk about the past few ones.

actually,i don't really seem to like writing in this blog nowadays it's such a cliche.pooh!just like how i'd hate you if you listen to Bella Luna and behave as if you've been a Jason Mraz fan ever since Waiting For My Rocket To Come.

open bracket colon byebye

Saturday, October 01, 2005 | 1:59 PM

whoo.changed my blogskin.so what?no one cares anyway.

i went out yesterday with yicen,inez and mingee.cos yicen was the birthday girl!me and mingee decided to act cute at first,but then i couldn't stop and was rather annoying.hahaa yicen bought a small cheesecake and got one mini candle.however,there wasn't a lighter anywhere!hahaa i still made yicen get a candle for she couldn't wish she'd be with Lin ZhiYing anymore.

in the end,we went to MacDonalds and ate lunch where inez decided to take a fry and dip in chilli sauce then stick it right in the middle of her cake as the candle.we really did that you know,and coincidentally there was another birthday girl there,though we don't know them who celebrated her birthday.

well i saw this thing which i shouldn't have seen.i wanted to scream,because the DISGUSTING sight of it alone spoilt my day.but whatever,i can't have everything in life anyway.

i went back and decided to play maple.i got angry with 2 people.i don't like to get angry,and people dislike seeing my nasty sight even more.

you'd never know what i did to resolve the anger.ROAR.

to anyone who wants to taunt me about not having a half-day in school because i am already 13,i'm telling you it is JUST TOO BAD because you will have one day to study less in the ever-moving academic pace of life so you will have LESS TIME TO STUDY and end up having a WORSE future than mine!