Monday, May 30, 2005 | 4:29 PM

Homework List.

homework list for today:

math specimen papers
lit. poem
2 chapters of Lit. book + diary entries
half of the science worksheets
fcukingarticle

YEY!

anyway my bro's at camp.hello more-fun days!and tomorrow my sis's going chalet.(in advance)hello one-person days!yay~!

i love being alone.cos no one is allowed to boss me about.

Sunday, May 29, 2005 | 4:46 PM

it's raining.the sky's crying.it's not.

i am.

Thursday, May 26, 2005 | 6:51 PM

i don't know why.i didn't woke up unhappy or anything.i was just tired.and when i came to school,i really couldn't help getting irritated with my peers.i thank myself for not letting it out and hurting their feelings at the same time.i just held it in,like the increasing amount of air added to my balloon of emotion.

in the past,i used to get outbursts extremely easily and everyone disliked me,but now,i've changed,though the second fact remains.i would use my fatigue as an excuse for all the mood swings,but they just didn't believe me.i know,in everyone's deepest thoughts,they are the star of their own world,forever in the limelight,but in truth,most of them are just the complete opposite.you call this self-esteem.yea,the one thing that keeps people going.

i can't help to keep thinking about my examination results.i know very well that i had done very badly.i know i have been so lazy,but there had indeed been times where i really pushed myself to get the results i want.like when the mid-years came.i studied hard.but everything was unexpectedly bad.i didn't even get a b3 for a single subject.i really studied and practiced so hard,but why has it to be like that?

call for self-esteem,i hear you say.but no;i was blighted of it in my primary school years.just imagine,a quality,growing in you like a plant,just stretching it's roots when it was severely chopped off,stripped of anything.how do you expect me to grow it within me now?

inspiration:the second,and last choice.
i used to have inspiration,i did.for the people i love,i did things for them and they reaped well.but now,i'm not even sure if anyone even likes me.i keep hearing people say at least one person in the world loves you,but do you know how i cringe when i hear that?i'm not saying that the sentence is utter rubbish,but somehow,it just doesn't work for me.

someone save me,i need inspiration.i really do

Wednesday, May 25, 2005 | 4:15 PM

Star Wars

wheeeeeee yesterday was fun!

we had Chinese Calligraphy lessons by the CLDDS people.seriously they are all from china.no offence though.bleargh.

so messy!my practice sheet.so ugly!my freehand writing.yes i did not paint the words and i did follow the instructions on how to do it correctly.but still,so ugly!
-.-

and then yicen,inez and me went to watch Star Wars.whehee it was nice but all of us didn't like the ending.

rocked,Star Wars did.
So hot,Hayden Christiansen is.
cold,that theatre was.
reached home late,i did.

-.-lll

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we had the lit. trip today.the class was divided into 2 groups and one stayed in the room while the group i was in went for an excursion.when we came back after our trip the group inside was about to start acting out their plays.and they kept insisting that we not come in and watch them.we were reduced to the darkness outside.

and when it was our turn to act,they came back and were literally squeezing their faces against the door to see us act.i'm positive there are still grease marks on the glass now.and a short while after that,they apparently lost their patience waiting outside and opened the door to allow half of them to rush in.

sickening.

oh and after that me and yicen and huijun were in the classroom playing (poker) card games.don't i just love gambling?no.

Saturday, May 21, 2005 | 5:54 PM

Why?

i've fallen sick.sore throat.ouch.

why?!i studied so hard and i did so badly for my mid-years,you made me sick and miss my Star Wars movie today after cross-country.yeah,count my blessings.mean old scamp.and now my password prompt is NOT working.RAAAH i just hate everything.

on the other hand,maybe i'll get to miss school on tuesday.ah,haven't fallen sick for so long.more than half a year since,to be exact.

maybe it wouldn't hurt so much with you gone.but you've already done so,and the wound is still so open and raw,and still hurting so much.

| 12:07 PM

CIP

maybe things could work out.

i've learnt my lesson. never ever ever forget to bring your wallet out with you,unless you want to end up like me today,sitting at the void deck looking oh-so-lonely and oh-so-pissed at the same time.hmph i can't believe my luck.i was actually thinking of going out!but hey,if i really did,i wouldn't have saved my remaning allowance for the week!though it's just an easy-peasy amount of $4.

so there was CIP today.we (6 recruits,2 leaders) combed the whole block from 8.15 to 9.40am.aw man,the things collected were so much we had to spend about 30 minutes shifting the things through lifts to the first floor.and we also had to call the truck to come to our block when we were supposed to walk to the other block.

at the 8th floor,it was totally dog-infested.2 units had crazy dogs with couldn't shut their mouths even before they saw us.we were totally freaked out at first,because me and huijun saw the two dogs rather quiet though they were advancing towards us.then suddenly one tried to paw us(luckily there was a barrier,ha ha,you doggish devil) and started screaming,and suddenly his friend discovered that two's company,and followed.when we walked to the other unit on the same floor,it was very near and also had an equally senile dog.it also started barking its head off and the two in the background continued with their freako screams,not realising that three's a crowd.

yeah and there was this woman who seem especially pleased to see us come.she said that her daughter's in cedar and is waiting for her university admission.she gave us Vitagen and said that cedar's a good school!

mmmmmm yeah and that's about all,because the rest were rather boring.oh and i saw 2 cutey chinchillas!i sorta woke them up because i kept cooing:aww goodness so damned cute!!arg!!
-.-ll

lame right?

Thursday, May 19, 2005 | 4:49 PM

damn cross country

i'm still sad.

i was in the 'top' 300 who completed...but what do you expect from someone who's the physically unhealthiest,and which ridiculously short legs?!they kept using my tissues.i wish i brought the cheapo ones...4 packets of the best tissue used to clean shoes.damnit.

went to suntec without changing,though i went to the washroom to do so immediately after i reached there.i literally poured talcum powder all over,and i'm proud of it.thank goodness i didn't smell so disgusting after that.ate the yummy noodles there.i'm really fond of it.

yicen was so disgusting.she tried to make me laugh and spit out my almond crap dessert by saying stupid things and scaring me so i would spit it out due to extreme surprise.we had been sitting there shrieking for about 45 minutes and 2 adult workers were sitting there and surveying us.then they finally came over and asked us to switch places with them, because we were sitting at a 6-seat table and there were only 3 of us,while they had a pack of 6 office workers.sort of polite if you asked me,cos it would be so irritating if they barged in and requested in the middle of the 'fun'.

yeah me and inez couldn't find a direct bus home from there.and yicen had one as usual.she seems to have so many buses stopping outside her home.for your information,she has 5 direct buses to take,while i have to take 2 everyday.why,God,why?!

enough of pms-ing.thats why i put a password on my blog.i suppose people wouldn't like reading the complaints of an immature and crazed teenager.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005 | 6:12 PM

sigh.

so,we had the flyer thing today with the sec3s.band CIP,if you happen to do not understand what i'm writing about.i paired up with huijun.yeah and it was sort of boring,having to explain the same thing over and over again,though we met this so cute dog which wanted to paw us, if not for the gate acting as the barrier.adorable.

yeah and i distrubuted my flyers faster than huijun,but didn't manage to give out more.oh well,band is rather large.yeah and inez came to find me after we were dismissed.turns out that her CIP ended earlier than us.by 2 hours.so yeah,i desperately need a toilet and a good long drink.sounds ironic.

i took the buses home as usual.getting sick of public transport.hello??*waves hand*could you drive me??
i wouldn't matter where we'd go;so long i'm with you.
i reached home much earlier before my supposed time.shall not say why.

and here i am,listening to sad songs,sad thoughts swirling in my mind.looking at everything pessimistically,sadness flowing through each vein like quiksilver.i'm infected

sigh.

Friday, May 13, 2005 | 7:19 PM

oh yesss

hell what sort of friday the 13th this is?!it doesn't seem to work for me this year cos in 2004 me and my poor specs got hit by a ball hard. shiping are you reading this???you would remember~

oh and i went out with shiping,shinny,alicia and reggie!yeah it had indeed been a long time since we've met up again.miss them so much!!and uh me and alicia kept yakking away!soo fun okays.post-exam is good!Good!

but of course some things are missing.most people would not know.=/

the wind is howling so outside the windows.wavering thin curtains swaying along with it,dancing to it's soft,gentle,rippling rythmn.the sky draped with the diluted,pale,near-transparent colours of blue,not yet to be pinned up with a handful of glittering,shining,ivory stars.

just a little bit of literary draft.tee hee!

ms begam let us watch Children Of Heaven.well it's a real sad story which tugs and the heartstrings with its sad plot of poverty and sacrifice.honestly i felt guilty all the while i was watching it.cos people here are honestly taking everything for granted.yes,including me.we are complaining about other people and how we can't stand their attitude and things like that,but in countries like that featured in the movie,children at age 9 are already worrying over their family's financial problems and working to help make ends meet.

everyone wishes for world peace though.but at what price would it come at?

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me and yicen have decided not to be so obsessed.=)

Wednesday, May 11, 2005 | 7:24 PM

longg entry!

on tuesday something ridiculously funny happened.

after the math test,me, yicen and inez walked home together.it was half-drizzling then,and we all brought umbrellas.while me and yicen were playing with ours,we saw mr toh walking behind us.Behold the sight!obviously we were so horribly scared the two of us started walking a pace faster;we thought he would scold us for fiddling too much with the simple invention.also,the rain got slightly heavier and was what you could call heavy drizzle.*reader falls to the ground

then,suddenly, it rained so tremendously without a warning!

and we saw mr toh rushing like crazy front.but me and yicen were even more frightened and sort of sprinted away,leaving inez lagging behind.

then suddenly(again)!

mr toh somehow took shelter under inez's umbrella cos she was the last one walking front.not like inez's short,but mr toh is really tall.so the umbrella kept sorta hitting his head.3 of us(me,yicen,inez) kept laughing maniacally all the way to the bus-stop for no reason:

mr toh:so,you girls from which class arh?
1O
oh you all die liao,next term in my class leh.hehhehheh
*confused*
huh?you all know what i teach ornot?
no
D&T (next term die liao)

*bus stop*

to inez:aiyoh!umbrella hold properly arh!inside*points to bag* got your senior's papers!wait go home wet already, cannot mark!!
me and inez:*lame reaction* (yicen went the other way)

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really funny ok.

anyway i have got to go now!dinner and tv are both waiting for me!byees!!

| 6:30 PM

Ten To One

ten to one.
10 random things about me:
1. i wasn't actually qualified to study HMT
2. i'm extremely self-consious
3. i haven't cut my hair since last year
4. i am exactly 1.5m tall
5. i happen to extremely dislike more than 10 people in my class
6. i hate teachers though i wouldn't mind becoming one
7. i sleep with both the aircon and fan on every night
8. i've not seen jay chou up close before =/
9. i play 2 musical instruments and was in my primary school's choir
10. i used to believe strongly in love.not anymore

9 ways to win my heart:
1. do something sweet
2. have some charm,at least
3. good in lang;write me poems!
4. music player.piano,violin, better and better
5. able to cheer me up
6. cannot swear
7. devoted!
8. have fair skin
9. can't have lower intelligence than me

8 things i wanna do before i die:
1. write a will
2. fall in love at least once
3. at least publish one of my literary works
4. grow obscenely tall and become thin the same way too
5. achieve zero pimples (i'm on my way!!)
6. do some good in the world
7. get nicer hair
8. experience the four seasons

7 things that annoy me:
1. suck-up people
2. extreme untidiness
3. bengs and lians
4. people talking when i'm watching tv
5. being ignored
6. act-cutes
7. flirty people

6 things I wish for
1. my family to be contented and healthy
2. to be loved
3. to be successful in life
4. my friendships to last
5. the people i hate to PERISH
6. world peace! *bimbotic grin

5 things i am afraid of:
1. failing anything
2. cockroaches
3. rejection
4. people using vulgarities against me for no rhyme or reason
5. Losing my loved ones.

4 of my favorite items in my room
1. My bed
2. My books
3. My two stuffed dogs from my two best friends(luv ya!)
4. My albums

3 things i do everyday:
1. talk to my inner soul
2. listen to music
3. get up and down at least once

2 things i want to do right now:
1. write and write
2. slay somebody

1 Person you Want To See Right Now:
1. the person i wanna slay;i already have my carvers from yicen.
roasted meat,anyone?

Sunday, May 01, 2005 | 11:45 AM

New Blogskin!

so i changed my blogskin.nice??i edited it greatly to become like this. initially the background was a Happy House one.as you can see, the background is ONE picture altogether,and so i changed it.all the colour codes had to be changed,and boy it was tiring,from black to white.and the scroll bar was sort of screwed up, because it was pink when you pressed on the spaces of it,though the scroll bar was transparent.somehow i played with the codes and i came out with white scroll bars and the white has been changed to black!yipee!!!

i put a song as well!it's fish's leong's Hua Yuan.ahh it sounds so nice.but somehow, some people's computer didn't enable them to hear it.so weird.but it's not that essential anyway.

homework list:
finish science worksheets
finish english comprehension
chinese comprehension [1]

so sad.actually my science worksheet is completed,except for the front and last pages.too hard.but i'll try.