Sunday, July 31, 2005 | 10:01 PM
Thoughts
it would be better if you just left me alone to think things through for a while.your presence places so much pressure on me i really don't know what to do upon seeing your face.
sometimes,i'm really not who you think i am.actually i do love to be happy... just that i was never given the chance.try tasting the flavour of it i did, but it just wouldn't come my way.so just don't call me a sour puss.
stop talking bad things about me behind my back.you think i don't know about what you say,but i actually do.i don't need people to tell me what you said.i can tell from your everyday behaviour that you dislike me,so all these are bound to come.guess what?i hate you too,but i'm not so childish to stoop to saying such petty things.
if we really were forced to keep our mouth shut if we couldn't find anything good to talk about others, people would think i'm autistic.
don't keep reminding me that i contradict myself.do you really think we actually understand ourselves so well?
| 9:54 PM
该你的，才会是你的
argh!i don't want to talk about the past two days.it made me almost lose my sanity.seriously!i was screaming all over the place. what happened on thursday made me very annoyed and almost as sad as then too.
my internet broke down today!it got fixed,though.and i spent all the time before that moping all over the house and making science notes.sheesh i couldn't play maple!i still can't play now... it's too late.gah i hate waking up early.it's affecting me greatly i sleep while standing at the bus-stop sometimes!
nothing much to write nowdays actually.. however inspiration struck for a new storyline!yes!
signs of dejection... not fading away yet so soon.
Wednesday, July 27, 2005 | 8:05 PM
oolala lookie!
OOLALA LOOK WHO'S FROM CEDAR!! SIGNED, ONLY FOR PRESENT-DAY CEDARIANS!
Tuesday, July 26, 2005 | 8:33 PM
listen UP.
know something?of course, i know you don't, but i'd still like to tell you anyway!i am feeling rather happy today!!that's really something, you know i'm rather a gloomy and sad person.but i'm happy today!
know why?i know you do, but i'd still want to tell the whole world that i love rainy days!i love it when the sky goes all gloomy and big black clouds loom overhead!and then the rain would start shooting down like little liquid bullets, and go all pitter-pattery on the ground!and then i'll be leaning on my arm, gazing out of the window dreamily, not giving interest in the ongoing lesson!
i want to see all the scene of this wet, cold morning! though it makes me shiver, my heart is glowing because i know that you are there!also, i have the help of a windbreaker, which would add comfortably!finally, i'll walk home in the misty drizzle, skipping along the paths and singing a little tune to myself, because of the comforting thought of you!
of course, all this wouldn't be possible, if not for you!
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of course this is almost fictional, but i'm not kidding about the weather and my feelings about it.go coldness!rid the sun 50% away from the land i stay in!the part about you is so weird,suddenly i felt so inspired by this part of one book in my favourite series, which was rather similar to this!
i'm happy, for now!
OH!today is the release of Mr. A-Z in the US! go jason mraz!
Monday, July 25, 2005 | 6:32 PM
NAPFA
obviously we had our 2.4km walk-run today.it was hell, at least for me.because i was so very un-fit, i was panting all the way and got an asthma attack again.however my breathing didn't sound so horrifying as the sec2s who suffered the same fate.
i'm feeling greatly annoyed and pissed right now, as my humongous pile of homework is still undone with corrections not yet completed.all my textbooks are left in school so i never felt so helpless before.
i know this post is ever so short but hey, who actually reads my blog anyway?
i'm not hinting here... not such an attention-grabbing arsehole.
Saturday, July 23, 2005 | 5:34 PM
Accuracy
you are saddlebrown
#8B4513
Your dominant hues are red and yellow... most of what you do is motivated by your need to change things and have a good time, but you've been known to settle down and think out a situation, too. You tend to surprise people just when they're starting to feel like they've got you down.
Your saturation level is high - you get into life and have a strong personality. Everyone you meet will either love you or hate you - either way, your goal is to get them to change the world with you. You are very hard working and don't have much patience for people without your initiative.
Your outlook on life can be bright or dark, depending on the situation. You are flexible and see things objectively.
the spacefem.com html color quiz
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#8B4513 |
Your dominant hues are red and yellow... most of what you do is motivated by your need to change things and have a good time, but you've been known to settle down and think out a situation, too. You tend to surprise people just when they're starting to feel like they've got you down. Your saturation level is high - you get into life and have a strong personality. Everyone you meet will either love you or hate you - either way, your goal is to get them to change the world with you. You are very hard working and don't have much patience for people without your initiative. Your outlook on life can be bright or dark, depending on the situation. You are flexible and see things objectively. |
Friday, July 22, 2005 | 9:39 PM
Not Up To Y-o-u
changed my blogskin again.like it or not,you have no say.
being the petty person i am, obviously i am still as annoyed and irritated and angry as what it had been a few days ago.
i had my violin lesson just now.theory was horrendous.luckily my teacher swallowed my truthful excuse for not doing it as there had been a lack of time.surprisingly,my playing improved immensely,as my teacher said so.i had been rushing and practising my violin a mere 2 hours before my lesson started.i tripped on the strings horribly on my best song while practising.however when i was playing at the lesson, my tone was so good( i know i am not humble) it made the whole song sound all better!it continued to stay and my other two exam songs sounded a whole lot better!maybe this was the best part of today.
bimbotic fact: Derrick got in!!!SO did Kelly!!! but i am more excited for Derrick for reasons best not known to you.
Nice Quote By Me!(i don't mean it though)
being in love makes you deprove horribly academically,which also in turn explains why only fools fall in love.
Sunday, July 17, 2005 | 2:28 PM
nothing much to blog about nowadays.because i do nothing but homework or read,and sometimes go on the computer.
goodness i need the harry potter book badly!!arg i was so annoyed by my deprivation i screamed out loud.no i am not crazy.i am just mentally insecure.
i think this is enough.really,my life is boring as it can get and school sucks.
Friday, July 15, 2005 | 4:30 PM
annoyance
i'm feeling fickle and regret at the same time.i'm fickle because i changed my blogskin yet again,because i somehow fell in love with simple skins,but the thing is i want to make one myself!i will not elaborate on the latter.
i'm very satisfied with Project Superstar period.because WeiCong got in!yay i now finally have a favourite contestant in the top10.
i had band yesterday.HAHA so funny yesterday... but i reached home freaking late.stupid public transport.GRR.anyhow i thought our sale of food yesterday was a total failure.i just can't help feeling extremely annoyed by someone each and every schoolday.if only i could strangle her neck...
i have still got violin lesson afterwards.damn i haven't done my theory yet.and i need to change the lesson days!having it on friday is too stressful for me,i need to study on thursday ya know!
i know this post has no content,and i don't expect you to bear with me,as i do not write for an audience.
Wednesday, July 13, 2005 | 3:59 PM
quite annoyed, actually.
i'm not feeling that happy now.OH WELL.
today, the Head PC nominees showcased their talents.haha it was funny.me and inez were sitting at the front and the big speaker was obviously very loud to us.know something?the contestant in Project Superstar Candyce was from Cedar!!!whohoo~!haha i saw her up close...so pretty!sigh..i didn't get her authograph though.she came to gain support.and her STUPID assistant was giving out flyers to the people sitting at the table behind me.but she just completely WALKED PAST ME after that.OH WHATEVER WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER ABOUT INSIGNIFICANT STUFF LIKE THIS?
alright today there's the show!there's weicong!hahaa i don't like him half as much after i realised that 99% of his fans are stupid girls who tYPe tExXt lYK diSH nEhHXx.
great impersonation of the average heartlander?i do strongly think so.
Monday, July 11, 2005 | 3:38 PM
so damned angry.
it has been about 7h.but i am still very pissed.ohwells.how can i be not when i had 2 asthma attacks within 50 minutes?!
school sucked today.ah, as usual.somehow i don't seem to actually derive some knowledge from school,so i might just as well stay at home all the time and learn lessons when i feel like it.=D wouldn't it be nice?
i am so tired nowadays.so sick of seeing those faces in the classroom each schoolday.
sometimes it would just work if you left me alone for just a while.
Sunday, July 10, 2005 | 9:26 PM
i'm in despair!
2 of my 3 favourite Project Superstar contestants got the boot!in case you didn't know,they were the supposed favourites Derrick and Kelly.sighh.they'll still be coming back for the revival round,but i'm afraid only one would get in.goodness i hope it'd be Derrick.he's really really really got talent!!i mean like,if he/Kelly doesn't get in,and my 3rd favourite contestant gets kicked out too i won't watch local TV ever again!nah i don't think so... i'm deprived of cable!damn!
everyone's mourning over Derrick's getting out.i mean like,seriously!yicen actually cried.never mind she's very emotional,but i felt like crying too!ah,i shouldn't get too crazy over this,but still... !!
alright let's talk about TIAN LONG BA BU!!that's happy,you know!because i was waiting so long for Duan Yu to appear.and when he finally did i got too excited and screamed.shucks i'm literally going crazy i should stop.yes!oh whatever.
this is a fully bimbotic post,alright?gee actually i wouldn't even care if you swallowed it down or not.
Saturday, July 09, 2005 | 3:12 PM
no you don't.
phew!i changed the layout when it finally dawned on me that i was not happy at all!this was very suiting.though the theme interpreted by me is lost love,i think it pretty much fits well.i haven't put up blog music in a long time,but this came with the layout and sounded so mellow i loved it and left it up there,though i don't understand japanese.
this layout isn't made by me of course,but i really did put in alot of effort to change everything to my liking.compared to the original one,there doesn't seem to have much change,but there really are some,not the necessary ones though you idiot!i switched places with certain codes and changed everything about the font.very satisfied with this layout,i am.
i might sound pissed,because i really am,with something else.what it is i will never disclose here.the matter doesn't concern you in the same way you care about me.everyone lives a seperate life.i wonder why must it be so that always lifes get entwined in each other,always in pairs.i guess mine would stray away from this path and lead a solitary life all alone,for eternity maybe?
i am sure that you don't know what on earth i am talking about,because i keep things to myself,anger and happiness both.i am not telling you them and never will.to all of you out there reading this you shouldn't be angry i don't tell them.because though i blog,i do not blog for an audience,which also in turn explains why i never advertise my blog anywhere,unless to tell people i know about my change in site.and also,i do indeed have the rights to my privacy.surely you don't tell each and every single thing about yourself to the whole world?
okay i shall stop here as i am not feeling in the mood to blog right now.i might come back later,and yet i might not.
inspired by a blog i read,i shall post a sentence of thought every now and then.
some things are just not meant to be,yet they keep on happening.why?
Friday, July 08, 2005 | 9:21 PM
hell i don't know what to say.actually,there are so many things unwritten,because i am just too lazy to type them out.what's more,they're totally private and don't concern you in any way possible.so there!
i know the world isn't tailor-made for everyone, but would do rather well for the normal person.but damn,i am different.how so? by telling you that the world doesn't fit me one bit.
Thursday, July 07, 2005 | 10:07 PM
gaaah i am learning the great big important lesson of how important time is,yet again.i know,but i cannot apply it,because some days are only for food,school,violin practice,sleep,1h of TV and nothing else.mark my words you dumbo idiot.i haven't even practiced my violin yet.it's 10pm now and the lesson's tomorrow,on a weekday.yes just perfectly GREAT.my eyelids are drooping, and i can think of nothing but sleep.but i must persevere!just one more hour to go,before i get to watch TV again!wait!my science is still undone.
sorry that i sound rude today.sorry for being so deprived.in short,i'm sorry for everything.
i'm just feeling too much jumbled-up emotions at the same time right now i can hardly concentrate on living.
i'm sorry.for what?i don't know.
Monday, July 04, 2005 | 4:11 PM
test result
The True You |
| You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to do more for you. |
| With respect to money, you are a bit stingy. |
| You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities. |
| The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort. |
| You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. |
| When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends. |
true?i'm not sure.it's up to you to decide on your own feelings.
| 10:38 AM
-nothing ... alright?-
haven't properly blogged in awhile ... i somehow feel like changing my blogskin but i just can't find any nice enough!maybe i'll go continue sourcing for a new one soon!
watched Artificial Intelligence yesterday.it started out pretty well but got screwed in the end.it's supposed to be science-fiction but i found it more spooky.wrong interpretation,i guess.heh!it was pretty touching actually,but i wouldn't pay to watch it in the cinema.=D
alright i'm busy up here(yeah im in heaven thankyouverymuch) so i'm scooting of now!
heh.
Friday, July 01, 2005 | 3:30 PM
My Absence!
OMG can!school is really gonna kill me!okay i've too many things to say i forgotten loads of them.look!
Wednesday
yes me and alex went to watch Initial D!yay i got lost at the ps cinema.because i never watched a movie there before.nope,i don't think it's that sinful.but i'll want to kill myself if i watch another movie at Bishan J8 again.okay the movie ROCKED.it's true okay.there was this funny thing:the whole cinema was filled up with secondary school girls like myself.and when jay appeared everyone(yes including me) went:aaahh...
tell me wasn't it so fan-like?hahahhaa i'm not going to disclose details about the movie here,because i have no mood to and you should watch the movie to find out what happened.alex kept saying 'edison is sooo hot'.hahaha i still think jay rocks better.=D
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had band yesterday.haha that instructor isn't going to come again next week.ms sia is coming back,according to him.but the way yethong and hannah retort to him is seriously hilarious.HAHA.
today is boring.like me!grr there's violin afterwards and i haven't finished my theory yet.sheeesh!i also realised something which i told charlotte:my blogskin has been on for 3 weeks!wow that sounds like a record alright.i think it would continue to be broken.because band is twice a week and i have violin too.which means i can only come online over the weekends,to catch up on jasonmraz.com and read more fanfics.yep the second semester is indeed rushed.horribly too,by the way.
alright i'd better stop ranting now.bye-bye!